little green men, give me something to do.
i got a pretty new phone, yay. it's black and shiny and sleek. and it's a clam-shell phone, which only makes it that much cooler. i've always wanted a clam-shell phone but somehow i always end up with the candy bar type of phones. so yes, i'm very satisfied with my phone now. just please, please don't die on me!
job hunt the past few days has been tiring, to say the least. i absolutely abhor talking on the phone, and the fact that it's with complete strangers who may be potential employers makes it so much worse. and i hate it when they say they'll call you back but then they never do.
part of me wants to go out and work and earn some money so i can pay for my japanese lessons, and the other part of me -- the spoilt brat part -- wants to just sit at home and waste away in front of the tv watching rainbow romance (which i finally found in kl! all 200+ episodes of it.) and doing nothing much else. went out with rabecca and sam today on a job hunt. didn't manage to go to any job agencies, but we did call up a few of the classified job ads. i think out of the 3 of us only rab was the most proactive in looking for jobs haha; sam and i were kind of complaining about every job because every one of them would have some sort of flaw for us to pick on. there was this one ad about selling flowers from 12th to 14th feb that i was quite keen on, but the guy hasn't smsed me yet even though he said he would. sigh.
i think it's pretty hard to get a job with my japanese lessons being so inconveniently scheduled right now, so maybe i should just wait till the elementary 1 course ends before i go sign up for the next and choose a course at night or something.
and everytime i think about what to do after getting my results i get more and more depressed, because everytime i do that a new problem seems to crop up. scrouging around for information on the net does absolutely nothing to help either, because with each page i look at the idea of actually studying in japan becomes so much more distant. it's not just the tuition fees (which, come to think of it, isn't so much of a problem since it's actually not very much more expensive than studying in a local university) but there's so much more to consider as well. the application procedures alone are enough to make you want to go bash your head against a wall. and because i was so dumb and decided to quit japanese in sec 2 it's so much harder now because now there's still an additional language barrier that i have to get over. and after that there's the EJU... and even then i have no idea what university to apply for.
maybe i should just stick it out here, huh. raaaaaaargh i feel like bashing something up.
i wish the sky would open up and drop a path down for me to follow. but this "shou zhu dai tu" kind of mentality wouldn't be of much good would it? (gee i guess my chinese isn't all that messed up after all.)
okay give me a job, somebody, if for nothing more than to take my mind off such matters.
music: ai uta; GReeeeN
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tune out the world ; 10:43 PM
