things i couldn't say.
i've dropped my poor phone about five times in the span of three days!! why am i such a klutz. especially with this phone. and i'm particularly careful with it partly because it's a clamshell phone and everyone knows how fragile and prone to spoiling clamshell phones are, and also because i really like my present phone. it's almost everything i could want in a phone! the worst thing about dropping my phone is that it's always from a rather great height. it's already beginning to die on me slightly, what with its always being unable to access the network and its switching off randomly. maybe i should just send it in for repairs right now since it's still under warranty. okay! when i stop working and finally have more free time i'll send it in and see what they can do about it.
and i have got to correct my horrible habit of stupidly clapping my hands over my ears and not doing anything to stop something i drop from, uh, hitting the ground. but it's an ingrained habit and it's hard to break. i don't know when i started doing that when i dropped things anyway. it's as if i'm telling myself that as long as i don't hear the crash of whatever i dropped hitting the floor nothing really happened, when in fact it did and i'm just deluding myself.
speaking of hearing and not hearing, the other day i was having my dinner at suntec and you know how it is when you eat alone -- you just look all around you because there's nothing to distract you with. there was this table diagonally in front of me with three women, all deaf and communicating in sign language, and i was desperately trying not to stare because that'd seem very rude. but it was really interesting, because when they were "talking" to each other they really put full attention on whoever it was who was "speaking", and i just thought that it's so ironic that they're actually the best listeners of all. when other people are talking to us normally we'll avoid eye contact (okay that's what i do anyway, i'm just weird that way), or busy ourselves with other things as well. deaf people can't do that, because they have to look at the person to know what that other person is trying to communicate. seeing that really makes me want to do just that from now on, and really listen when people are talking to me. not that i don't listen to people talk, it's just that i'm guilty of tuning out sometimes especially when i have other stuff on my mind or when whatever is being said isn't exactly something i agree with. i'm selfish that way i guess.
and i've been so tired these couple of days it's almost weird. i feel tired the minute i open my eyes in the morning, and it just gets worse throughout the day. which is strange given that i do sleep adequate amounts i think. oh well.
anyway, had an off day today. was really looking forward to it initially but i think it wasn't a very nice off day after all. i went to vivo with all intention to shop because of all the sales i'd been hearing about, but there really wasn't anything worth buying in all the shops i went to. plus i was kind of tired the whole time, and that didn't help very much. i guess it was also because i realised i'd given too much of a discount a few days ago when wynne smsed me about it, presumably because mr tan discovered the mistake. and i was still so happy that we'd survived mr tan's being away without anything much happening. and he's apparently in quite a foul mood, so i'm really not anticipating work tomorrow at all. hopefully he'll be in a better mood by then!
my maid's back too, so i guess that makes me a little happier.
i was watching japanese variety shows for a while just now, and a korean game show on tv earlier as well, and watching them makes me feel like i really want to learn both languages and be proficient in them as fast as i can. hopefully i'll be able to take korean in nus. and japanese at the same time. i don't know if that's possible.
even if it is, what can i do when i graduate? maybe i'll just go be a tour guide then. i'll get to travel to japan and korea too. (:
okay i'm getting sleepy again. it's either because lydia's sleep disorder is contagious or because the weather nowadays is so warm and conducive to sleep.
oh yes, for lydia! http://community.livejournal.com/spreehouse/3611279.html#cutid1 (: sorry this took so long!
off to sleep!
music: wae naman; wheesung
Labels: day-to-day, thoughts
tune out the world ; 11:14 PM
