Tuesday, March 31, 2009
no one here to save me.
when you see a marker like the one below, what do you think??
do you think something like "this marker is erasable on a whiteboard without having to use water"?
or do you come to the perfectly reasonable conclusion that the marker ink is erasable, as in "i can erase what i write with this marker on paper"?
tell me someone else thought the latter please. estrina laughed at me like crazy after i told her that the marker was a fake erasable marker because it couldn't be erased. and i was so fascinated by that horrible marker too!
my sole consolation lies in the fact that lydia thought exactly the same way as i did. haha.
i've been a total klutz at work lately. working at cathay, i stabbed my palm on the tape dispenser (the sharp jagged edge where you cut the tape off) and knocked my head against the wall by accident. at suntec, the tape dispenser there hates me too and cuts me almost every day i'm working there. the other day, while i was reaching for the lab series multi-action face wash, it fell off and hit my finger. and i bumped my arm against the corner of the counter. today, i tried to spray the paco rabanne fragrance for lydia, to prove my point that it smelled very bad. tried being the operative word. instead of spraying it on the tester strip, it turned out that i was holding the bottle the wrong way around so i ended up with a very horrible-smelling hand the rest of the day.
it's just fatigue, i tell you. honestly.
or maybe it's all the attempts to come up with passably decent essays for university applications. it's a draining process. especially since it's been so horribly long that i've written anything of that length.
somehow, it feels like we're all struggling with different things now, and it's terribly lonely feeling that way.
music: what do i do; jisun
tune out the world ; 12:24 AM
do you think something like "this marker is erasable on a whiteboard without having to use water"?or do you come to the perfectly reasonable conclusion that the marker ink is erasable, as in "i can erase what i write with this marker on paper"?
tell me someone else thought the latter please. estrina laughed at me like crazy after i told her that the marker was a fake erasable marker because it couldn't be erased. and i was so fascinated by that horrible marker too!my sole consolation lies in the fact that lydia thought exactly the same way as i did. haha.
i've been a total klutz at work lately. working at cathay, i stabbed my palm on the tape dispenser (the sharp jagged edge where you cut the tape off) and knocked my head against the wall by accident. at suntec, the tape dispenser there hates me too and cuts me almost every day i'm working there. the other day, while i was reaching for the lab series multi-action face wash, it fell off and hit my finger. and i bumped my arm against the corner of the counter. today, i tried to spray the paco rabanne fragrance for lydia, to prove my point that it smelled very bad. tried being the operative word. instead of spraying it on the tester strip, it turned out that i was holding the bottle the wrong way around so i ended up with a very horrible-smelling hand the rest of the day.
it's just fatigue, i tell you. honestly.
or maybe it's all the attempts to come up with passably decent essays for university applications. it's a draining process. especially since it's been so horribly long that i've written anything of that length.
somehow, it feels like we're all struggling with different things now, and it's terribly lonely feeling that way.
music: what do i do; jisun
Labels: amusements, thoughts
tune out the world ; 12:24 AM
Saturday, March 28, 2009
i wonder what victory feels like.
because i think i will be busy with work the next few days, here's an early birthday (or birthay, if you're sam) message for rab.
happy birthday, you receiver-of-my-death-threats-and-hate-messages and love rival (for sam, not charles haha). hope you like the stuff we got for you, and take good care of charlespanzee and squeaky alright? have a very happy year ahead, and despite all i always say about hating you, i think you're an awesome friend actually. ahem. doesn't change the fact that i hate you though. really. (: thanks for being sweet and making birthday wishes for all of us even though you really didn't have to. here's wishing you a wonderful birthday and lots of presents that you'll love. happy 20th! do you feel old yet?? think of your mental age and i'm sure that'll be lots of comfort to you. haha okay, since it's your birthday i won't be so mean. happy birthday you.
and other random photos from today. we went to nyny for dinner and had candy floss!! i had one and a half sticks of cotton fluff because rab couldn't finish hers, so i was very very happy. and nyny has very good aglio olio, which i finished really fast. it felt nice catching up with the rest of them, and i think it always feels wonderful to be around them. hopefully we all get into nus, so there'll be more chances to meet up and all. speaking of which, wynne got into yst! we had double the reasons to celebrate today, haha. congratulations! when you called to tell me i wanted to scream but i couldn't because i was in the library and people were glaring at me. it's wonderful news anyway.
i can't say much about the cake because someone said i couldn't point something out. just stare really closely at the cake and the icing, okay? haha.
and other very random photos from other days. like when wynne won a game of freecell and i was so amazed, because you need to think so much for that game to solve it. so i took a picture of it. haha i feel so much like a mountain tortoise. oh oh, and speaking of tortoises, when we went to build-a-bear wynne and i saw fero turtlesoup's cousin all decked out in taekwando gear and he was adorable. really. like a mini teenage mutant ninja turtle or something, just with ten times the cuteness added in.
and this was taken when i was waiting for my sister to come fetch us with wynne one day when we were working together. it's the fountain of wealth at suntec. it was shooting up this blast of water so so high, and we'd both never seen that before so we both took a picture of it. can't really see it in the picture though. it's that cloudy mass in the centre.
okay what else. i haven't been blogging for quite a while, it seems. oh, i went to register for driving lessons! will be having my btt on 23rd april, and i am very confused over all the road signs. seriously, why are there so many to know?? then my practical lessons will start in may, so hopefully by august i'll be able to drive. haha. i hope.
i need to buy a couple of things, so i'm eagerly awaiting my pay on the 5th. need to get a laptop sleeve, and uhh... okay i know i had some things i wanted to get, but i can't remember them now. and i finally got my bag delivered! i like it a lot. haha. even though it's not exactly as i imagined it to be, i suppose it still looks nice. i'm just worried it'll snap because of all the stuff i put inside.
ah, and i went to trim my fringe today. felt so self-concious the whole day because i thought it looked very weird, but i think i'm sort of getting used to it already, because it doesn't look all that strange to me now. it took me so many days to decide to go trim it, and today i changed my mind about half a dozen times before i finally mustered up enough courage to just go ahead and cut it. i'm so so wishy-washy about stuff sometimes, and i hate that.
hmm, and i finally registered for the elementary 2 lessons of japanese too. seems like this is a week of doing things on my to-do list, haha. wanted to sign up for the same class as max at first, but the time slot i signed up for became full and max had to sign up for the later one. ): hopefully we both get nice teachers! i'm hoping i'll get yamamoto sensei again, because she's amusing and very nice. plus i think she explains stuff clearly too.
gosh this has been such a self-centred entry. if you count the number of "i"s and "me"s it'd probably be astonishing.
somedays now it feels like i'm just drifting along, going to work when i have to and scrambling to finish up essays for university applications when i don't have to work. it's like i'm at a loss as to what to do with my life. and just the other day when i was working with elena we were talking about what we wanted to do in life, and i realised we pretty much shared the same ambition. which came as a relief, somehow, because i'd always thought i was the only person with so little drive and goals in life. haha we both just want to be happily married, really. i kind of understand what mrs loo meant when she said i was a simple girl with simple wants now, although i still don't quite agree with the simple part because i dream of impossible stuff so often.
but they're all just daydreams, really.
music: what do i do; jisun (boys over flowers ost)
tune out the world ; 12:19 AM
happy birthday, you receiver-of-my-death-threats-and-hate-messages and love rival (for sam, not charles haha). hope you like the stuff we got for you, and take good care of charlespanzee and squeaky alright? have a very happy year ahead, and despite all i always say about hating you, i think you're an awesome friend actually. ahem. doesn't change the fact that i hate you though. really. (: thanks for being sweet and making birthday wishes for all of us even though you really didn't have to. here's wishing you a wonderful birthday and lots of presents that you'll love. happy 20th! do you feel old yet?? think of your mental age and i'm sure that'll be lots of comfort to you. haha okay, since it's your birthday i won't be so mean. happy birthday you.
and other random photos from today. we went to nyny for dinner and had candy floss!! i had one and a half sticks of cotton fluff because rab couldn't finish hers, so i was very very happy. and nyny has very good aglio olio, which i finished really fast. it felt nice catching up with the rest of them, and i think it always feels wonderful to be around them. hopefully we all get into nus, so there'll be more chances to meet up and all. speaking of which, wynne got into yst! we had double the reasons to celebrate today, haha. congratulations! when you called to tell me i wanted to scream but i couldn't because i was in the library and people were glaring at me. it's wonderful news anyway.
i can't say much about the cake because someone said i couldn't point something out. just stare really closely at the cake and the icing, okay? haha.and other very random photos from other days. like when wynne won a game of freecell and i was so amazed, because you need to think so much for that game to solve it. so i took a picture of it. haha i feel so much like a mountain tortoise. oh oh, and speaking of tortoises, when we went to build-a-bear wynne and i saw fero turtlesoup's cousin all decked out in taekwando gear and he was adorable. really. like a mini teenage mutant ninja turtle or something, just with ten times the cuteness added in.
and this was taken when i was waiting for my sister to come fetch us with wynne one day when we were working together. it's the fountain of wealth at suntec. it was shooting up this blast of water so so high, and we'd both never seen that before so we both took a picture of it. can't really see it in the picture though. it's that cloudy mass in the centre.
okay what else. i haven't been blogging for quite a while, it seems. oh, i went to register for driving lessons! will be having my btt on 23rd april, and i am very confused over all the road signs. seriously, why are there so many to know?? then my practical lessons will start in may, so hopefully by august i'll be able to drive. haha. i hope.i need to buy a couple of things, so i'm eagerly awaiting my pay on the 5th. need to get a laptop sleeve, and uhh... okay i know i had some things i wanted to get, but i can't remember them now. and i finally got my bag delivered! i like it a lot. haha. even though it's not exactly as i imagined it to be, i suppose it still looks nice. i'm just worried it'll snap because of all the stuff i put inside.
ah, and i went to trim my fringe today. felt so self-concious the whole day because i thought it looked very weird, but i think i'm sort of getting used to it already, because it doesn't look all that strange to me now. it took me so many days to decide to go trim it, and today i changed my mind about half a dozen times before i finally mustered up enough courage to just go ahead and cut it. i'm so so wishy-washy about stuff sometimes, and i hate that.
hmm, and i finally registered for the elementary 2 lessons of japanese too. seems like this is a week of doing things on my to-do list, haha. wanted to sign up for the same class as max at first, but the time slot i signed up for became full and max had to sign up for the later one. ): hopefully we both get nice teachers! i'm hoping i'll get yamamoto sensei again, because she's amusing and very nice. plus i think she explains stuff clearly too.
gosh this has been such a self-centred entry. if you count the number of "i"s and "me"s it'd probably be astonishing.
somedays now it feels like i'm just drifting along, going to work when i have to and scrambling to finish up essays for university applications when i don't have to work. it's like i'm at a loss as to what to do with my life. and just the other day when i was working with elena we were talking about what we wanted to do in life, and i realised we pretty much shared the same ambition. which came as a relief, somehow, because i'd always thought i was the only person with so little drive and goals in life. haha we both just want to be happily married, really. i kind of understand what mrs loo meant when she said i was a simple girl with simple wants now, although i still don't quite agree with the simple part because i dream of impossible stuff so often.
but they're all just daydreams, really.
music: what do i do; jisun (boys over flowers ost)
Labels: occasions, photos, thoughts
tune out the world ; 12:19 AM
Friday, March 20, 2009
as simple as love should be, but never is.
a hundred ways to say your namesaw this at the esplanade linkway today, when i was out with huiyi, dawn, boon wei and moses. the funny thing about this was that it wasn't even the focal point of the whole display -- it was only an accompanying caption of sorts. the main part of the installation was lined paper with seemingly random phrases on them, which i should have taken a photo of but dumbly enough forgot to. it's really nice, isn't it. and there are countless ways to interpret it and each one gives the whole piece a different significance and meaning altogether. go walk by it if you've got the time.
i avoid speaking your name in conversation,
throwing it to the air as if it were nothing
more than an assumption of you; it is my last
mode of defence. the last item of clothing
to discard before i realise i'm naked in public.
because they can hear it in my voice. i know
even in that one short syllable that means
everything and nothing; your name is as common
as you are rare. as easy as you are not.
as simple as love should be, but never is.
but when i'm alone, i tie my tongue softly
round the familiar sound, as if pronouncing
with conviction the phonetics of desire
will cause time to pause just long enough
for the earth to hear me naming my loss.
-- tania de rozario
anyway, went out today with huiyi, dawn, boon wei and moses. it turned into a strangely arty day even though we never planned for it that way. i joined them about two hours late because i couldn't wake up early enough, after which we went to soup spoon for lunch and dawn went off for her driving lesson. after lunch we went to udders at novena for ice-cream where they gave us amazingly huge scoops of ice-cream. it's very good value for money! unlike at places like gelare, where the scoops they give you are tiny and still cost more than they do at udders. following that we went to kbox at marina square. haha it's really only my second time kboxing, but i think i had fun. stuffed ourselves full with peanuts and crackers that were exorbitantly priced, and then we headed over to esplanade intending to just sit around and talk. in the end we were just in time to catch one of those concourse performances by this band called "paul does funk", who were really good. at least with my very minimal knowledge of guitars and drums i thought they were awesome. huiyi and i were so amazed that they didn't have to pluck the guitar strings to produce sound hahaha but it turned out that they had to step on some funny pedal in order to produce sound by just touching the strings. see, that's the difference between someone who knows guitar (dawn) and those who know quite little (huiyi and i). plus the drummer was really cool! and he had this very nice smile. i think drummers (most of them at least) are very amazing. i wish i'd learnt drums when i was younger.
tuesday, we had an xbox outing at peiyen's house for the first time. very few people could make it this time though; only yimean, francis, sam, me and peiyen were around. and yimean left after a while. haha i love watching francis play. he's damn funny!
francis during halo: i'm going to go through the teleporter. *makes teleporting sound*
francis during gow: *runs far ahead to melee enemies then gets beaten down* OMG COME HELP ME MICHELLE I'M HERE HEEEEEEREEEE HEEEEEREEEE *makes funny sounds*
okay, i guess it doesn't sound half as funny when i type it out like this. you've got to be there to know how hilarious it was. and there was also the whole damage modifier bit where if you set it to 0% it says something like "the player can do nothing but glare and think angry thoughts" which made me laugh so much. honestly, half the time i was laughing so much i couldn't play, and then i'd suddenly get assassinated from behind by francis who sneakily popped up while i was trying to stop laughing.
monday and wednesday, i got to work with wynne! haha work was never more fun. we talked about lots of random stuff, and did ring-a-word puzzles because there weren't many customers. then we competed to see who was faster at doing them, and wynne won almost every time! haha i am so going to hone my ring-a-word skills so i will win the next time round.
i need to do my university applications!! i've been neglecting them for a while, but i really need to get down to doing it now. and i'm working the next four days in a row, so i won't have much time to think about it. oh no, now i'm feeling kind of stressed because the deadline for applications suddenly seems so close. okay. i'm off to go and do something about it.
music: xiao jiu wo; lin jun jie and charlene choi
Labels: amusements, day-to-day, xbox
tune out the world ; 12:46 AM
Saturday, March 14, 2009
and i was dying inside to hold you.
i've got a pretty new laptop, in burgundy! it's all sleek and shiny and begging to be used. i really did plan to buy it with my pay, but my dad bought it for me instead. i'm thinking i should at least pay for half of it so i'd take better care of it since it's literally my own hard-earned money.
the crowds at the it fair are really crazy though. you can't move without knocking into someone, or having someone knock into you which happens so very often even the most mild-mannered of people would get annoyed. and surprisingly enough, even with so many people roaming about suntec, there aren't that many customers coming into the shop. we barely got sales today, and our first sale was made at 8 plus. we were desperate, and the manager was worried to the extent that he told us to sms him if we made any sales. it was quite funny really, come to think of it.
i'm currently playing "dying inside to hold you" on repeat. it's such a mambo kind of song, and i'd never have heard/come to like it if not for the cd mix in the shop. after hearing it about five times a day, it kind of grows on you i think. at least the chorus does, anyway.
and i was dying inside to hold you
couldn't believe what i felt for you
dying inside i was dying inside
but i couldn't bring myself to touch you
okay, i know the lyrics are kind of cheesy and stupid. then again, i'm a sucker for lyrics like that.
like the ones for ss501's "because i'm stupid". or the ones in "starlight tears" by what's-her-name-again. i suppose i shouldn't put down all the lyrics here because i'll only seem like a lovesick weirdo. but they're nice lyrics, and they're nice songs. i don't understand why the boys over flowers soundtrack got slammed so much.
i realise, i never ever use my camera anymore. which is a pretty bad thing, since it means i wasted so much money on it. therefore i've decided to bring it around all the time, even if it's just to take random photos of random things/candid photos of people when they're not looking. haha. even though i don't like being in photos, i really don't mind taking photos. it's fun going through the whole process of deciding what to take and then how you should take it to best capture whatever feeling you're trying to produce. okay, that probably made no sense. and it's not like i take amazing photos anyway. and i realise -- like ale who also takes lots of random photos -- i've actually amassed quite a lot of very random candid photos of people when they're not looking. mostly they look kind of emo, because their heads are either down or with that looking-into-the-distance-forlornly gaze on their faces. purely unintentional, actually.
okay, done installing everything on my pretty new laptop, which i have named meeep. don't ask me why, because i randomly typed that out when it prompted me to name it. no one's ever going to see that name anyway, right? except you, who just read till here.
ntu and nus open house tomorrow, then i have to rush home to do up applications and stuff since i'll be busy with work and stuff the next few days. work is eating up all my time, but i'm almost glad for it because it means i don't have too much time to think about things i shouldn't be thinking about.
sigh. sometimes i feel like such a mess these days.
music: starlight tears; boys over flowers ost
tune out the world ; 2:19 AM
the crowds at the it fair are really crazy though. you can't move without knocking into someone, or having someone knock into you which happens so very often even the most mild-mannered of people would get annoyed. and surprisingly enough, even with so many people roaming about suntec, there aren't that many customers coming into the shop. we barely got sales today, and our first sale was made at 8 plus. we were desperate, and the manager was worried to the extent that he told us to sms him if we made any sales. it was quite funny really, come to think of it.
i'm currently playing "dying inside to hold you" on repeat. it's such a mambo kind of song, and i'd never have heard/come to like it if not for the cd mix in the shop. after hearing it about five times a day, it kind of grows on you i think. at least the chorus does, anyway.
and i was dying inside to hold you
couldn't believe what i felt for you
dying inside i was dying inside
but i couldn't bring myself to touch you
okay, i know the lyrics are kind of cheesy and stupid. then again, i'm a sucker for lyrics like that.
like the ones for ss501's "because i'm stupid". or the ones in "starlight tears" by what's-her-name-again. i suppose i shouldn't put down all the lyrics here because i'll only seem like a lovesick weirdo. but they're nice lyrics, and they're nice songs. i don't understand why the boys over flowers soundtrack got slammed so much.
i realise, i never ever use my camera anymore. which is a pretty bad thing, since it means i wasted so much money on it. therefore i've decided to bring it around all the time, even if it's just to take random photos of random things/candid photos of people when they're not looking. haha. even though i don't like being in photos, i really don't mind taking photos. it's fun going through the whole process of deciding what to take and then how you should take it to best capture whatever feeling you're trying to produce. okay, that probably made no sense. and it's not like i take amazing photos anyway. and i realise -- like ale who also takes lots of random photos -- i've actually amassed quite a lot of very random candid photos of people when they're not looking. mostly they look kind of emo, because their heads are either down or with that looking-into-the-distance-forlornly gaze on their faces. purely unintentional, actually.
okay, done installing everything on my pretty new laptop, which i have named meeep. don't ask me why, because i randomly typed that out when it prompted me to name it. no one's ever going to see that name anyway, right? except you, who just read till here.
ntu and nus open house tomorrow, then i have to rush home to do up applications and stuff since i'll be busy with work and stuff the next few days. work is eating up all my time, but i'm almost glad for it because it means i don't have too much time to think about things i shouldn't be thinking about.
sigh. sometimes i feel like such a mess these days.
music: starlight tears; boys over flowers ost
Labels: thoughts
tune out the world ; 2:19 AM
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
on a white piece of paper i draw you.
i've found new joy in working at cathay, because i've found this amazing japanese food court that sells all things japanese at really cheap prices. the food's actually decent, and the entire place is done up really nicely so it looks more like a restaurant than a food court. i don't mind the long hours at cathay so much now, now that i have good food to look forward to twice a day. it's on the third level of pomo (formerly paradiz centre), and i'm only advertising it here because i don't want it to close down since it's always quite deserted everytime i go there. on the other hand, if too many people know about it it's going to be constantly crowded and wouldn't be half as nice anymore.
okay, who am i kidding, i'm totally overestimating my influence. haha.
i've been spamming boys before flowers episodes the entire day since i woke up, and i'm now halfway through the series. which is unfortunate, because i don't really want it to end. you know, i'm beginning to think japanese manga artists and korean scriptwriters must be the most romantic people ever, because the guys in both japanese manga and korean dramas are honestly melt-worthy material. alright, i sound like a complete airheaded bimbo saying that, but seriously -- where in the world do you find actual guys like that?
like suou tamaki in ouran high, who's a goofball most of the time, but swoon-worthy whenever he does his whole i-will-protect-you thing. come to think of it, i think that's what i love most in ichigo as well. (ahem, by the way, yimean see this is why ichigo and inoue are suitable for each other!! one needs to be protected and the other one yearns to protect.) and in jun pyo.
on the other hand, if guys really said cheesy stuff like that, it'd be... strange would it not. or would it? okay i guess it depends on the guy.
sigh never mind, i'm at risk of turning this whole entry into a fangirling ramble of nonsense. and yuck, i sound like... okay i sound disgusting. never mind all that.
music: starlight tears; boys before flowers ost
tune out the world ; 4:46 PM
okay, who am i kidding, i'm totally overestimating my influence. haha.
i've been spamming boys before flowers episodes the entire day since i woke up, and i'm now halfway through the series. which is unfortunate, because i don't really want it to end. you know, i'm beginning to think japanese manga artists and korean scriptwriters must be the most romantic people ever, because the guys in both japanese manga and korean dramas are honestly melt-worthy material. alright, i sound like a complete airheaded bimbo saying that, but seriously -- where in the world do you find actual guys like that?
like suou tamaki in ouran high, who's a goofball most of the time, but swoon-worthy whenever he does his whole i-will-protect-you thing. come to think of it, i think that's what i love most in ichigo as well. (ahem, by the way, yimean see this is why ichigo and inoue are suitable for each other!! one needs to be protected and the other one yearns to protect.) and in jun pyo.
on the other hand, if guys really said cheesy stuff like that, it'd be... strange would it not. or would it? okay i guess it depends on the guy.
sigh never mind, i'm at risk of turning this whole entry into a fangirling ramble of nonsense. and yuck, i sound like... okay i sound disgusting. never mind all that.
music: starlight tears; boys before flowers ost
Labels: thoughts
tune out the world ; 4:46 PM