despite all our complaints about cors i guess we all managed to survive it in one piece. and we're all relatively satisfied too, which is a good thing and worth celebrating. i suppose our only grouse now would be the staggering amount of points that we've squandered. i think i have about 50 left over, from an initial amount of 600. and i haven't bidded for my japanese module yet because the waiver only comes into effect in round 3. alright i'll just worry about it when the date approaches. tomorrow's the freshmen inauguration ceremony but i have no idea if i'm supposed to go at all. i'm so clueless about uni stuff it scares me. and i need to go drop off the giro and the psea form. i'm not too sure what the latter is for actually, but the girl who helped me register mumbled this long speech about it which i couldn't catch so i randomly nodded.
... not a very good start to the next few years.
anyway, it really feels like every man for his own in uni. friends you used to have get swept away with their own activities, and even those you're still talking to can barely spare time too. altogether it feels like it'll be a very lonely four/five years. i guess my proclamation of being a hermit is really going to come true. for once in my life i wish i wasn't right. or maybe i do. in any case i'll just work hard to get into an exchange program and run away to japan as soon as i can. because everything and everyone will be new there anyway, and you don't have to make up excuses for anyone else.
at least i have rachel and yimean and ale in fass with me. and angel too! but ale and angel are taking so vastly different modules i don't know if we'll ever meet. i have four common modules with rachel though! hopefully we get similar timings for tutorials too then it wouldn't be so hard to bear. and i hate that you have to go through balloting to get your tutorials. as if the bidding for modules wasn't bad enough.
and peiyen the wonderful modded my psp for me. thanks! i'm probably going to need it so much more in the next few months. thanks for coming all the way down too. sam as well. and sorry i had to rush off.
went to sgh after that because both my grandparents were in a&e. my grandfather hit his head on the wall while in vietnam and was so disoriented it was honestly worrying. apparently when he was walking his right foot would lag behind his left, and he didn't know what he was doing or where he was. but he seems better now. the doctor said something about his brain shrinking but i'm not too sure what that even means. i hope he gets better soon anyway.
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sometimes i wish i had something real to hold on to.
today i finally found lyrics to wheesung's narak, and knowing the exact meaning of the lyrics at last made me cry. i see what wheesung meant when he warned people not to listen to the song alone.
times like this make me wish i'd learnt korean.
music: narak; wheesung
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tune out the world ; 7:45 PM
