"author's note: the following is a work of fiction. any resemblance to persons living or dead is purely coincidental.

especially you jenny beckman.

bitch."

anyway i was just wondering how sad it'd be if the one for you didn't think you were the one for him/her. throughout the movie and all of tom's exclamations that summer was the one for him i kept thinking about that. it's not just the one you think is the one for you, if you get what i mean. it's the one who's truly for you. what if he never thinks so? and your having known him at all would mean you spend the rest of your life in regret because you know you can never be as happy as you could have been with him.

oh well you have hits and you have misses i guess.

after the movie sam and i walked around before going into starbucks. and i saw the perfect tumbler! it's really pretty. it's transparent, and has snowflakes printed on the outside. inside the tumbler there's this tiny white rabbit on the bottom. i wanted to find a picture of it online but i couldn't, so if you want to see it go to a starbucks! alternatively you can look at my horrible drawing of it. i swear, it's about a thousand times prettier. and the bunny looks less miserable. and doesn't need labelling for people to tell it is a bunny.

it's a christmas limited edition tumbler, and i really want to get it but my mum refuses to let me get it. partly because i lost my previous starbucks tumbler and partly because of horrible shell's giveaway a while ago. after i told her about the tumbler she didn't say a word and went behind to the storeroom from which she emerged after a minute carrying like eight huge ugly tumblers. then she poured them onto the floor and said that's why i can't get the tumbler.

*sulks*

anyway sorry for being such a fangirl, but with every performance i watch and every time i repeat the song wheesung's trickling just keeps on growing on me. and every time i listen to it i find something new to like. it's strange, because usually with a song i find a particular part which i like a lot, so every time i listen to the song i wait for that particular portion of the song and listen extra closely. with trickling it's entirely different, the entire song makes me listen closely. actually it's pretty much the same with a number of wheesung's new songs. that's how good they are. i wish people would look past his appearance to actually listen to him singing. not that he looks bad or anything. he's really good-looking. and he has the kind of looks that grow on you so you'll never get tired of it. and he's an amazing performer. his stage presence is honestly amazing. he's the only person you look at even when he has a plethora of back-up dancers and all. okay i might be biased.

sometimes i hate being such an obsessive fangirl.

oh by the way, my phone died on me and i've lost all my contacts. so if you want me to talk to you (okay now nobody is going to respond to this haha!) please sms me so i get your number again.

music: jooreureuk; wheesung

i don't really know why i'm blogging because i don't think i have anything to blog about. but every time i say that i end up typing out quite a long post anyway.

oh and i'm upset that promotions for vocolate are so quiet. i don't understand why wheesung doesn't seem to be promoting much. maybe it's because he's busy with his english album, but i'd be happier to see him on more shows and all. my sister says he's probably rushing everything out before he enlists in the army )): oh man now i understand how people with boyfriends in ns feel. okay i guess it's not quite the same since it's pretty much a one-way thing but it's a fangirl thing! honestly it feels painful even though that seems like i'm over-dramatising everything and being a pain.

oh well. anyway i'm so happy i survived last week. right now there's only the japanese studies project and the last new media project to deal with, and then before you know it it's finals already. the semester really flew by because it doesn't seem as if everything's quite settled in yet, and it's already near the end. i'm going to miss quite a lot of this semester i think.

oh and i feel like a stalker all over again haha! seriously i think it's scary how much you can find on facebook. people should totally hire me to dig up stuff on other people.

right. i'm going to go and look and see if assassin's creed 2 is available yet and buy it tomorrow if it is. initially i wanted to wait till the holidays to get it, but if i'm going to work during those fifteen days before i leave then i'm not going to have much time. plus i want to go and see those places in the game for real. for some strange reason for the first assassin's creed i never thought those buildings were real. so when i saw this really familiar-looking building on some discovery channel/history channel documentary i was literally like "hang on that building looks so familiar... OMG I TOTALLY CLIMBED TO THE TOP AND LEAP-OF-FAITH-ED FROM IT IN AC". and since there'll be places like venice and all in assassin's creed 2 i'm going to go see if i can find them in real life because it'll be awesomely cool.

okay i'll stop being a nerd.

oh wait i forgot about borderlands and the 87 bazillion guns sigh. so that's borderlands, assassin's creed 2 and l4d 2 to get. borderlands has 4 player co-op! an if peiyen gets xbox live imagine the possibilities hehe. okay maybe i shouldn't imagine them because i get the feeling nobody's going to want to come to my house because it apparently is really hard to get here. but the other alternative is hougang!! how is that more convenient?! it's still full of fields. okay, so it has a random interchange. and a shopping centre. and an mrt station. BUT IT HAS FIELDS. LOTS OF THEM. tanah merah has an mrt station. and will have a shopping centre soon. and there's good food outside just five minutes away. pfft. it's okay i'm sure sam will come to my house, right sam?

sheesh and i still have to get the trip details done i hate planning for trips. has anyone been to europe can you tell me what's good to go to? but it's so difficult to plan because everyone has different places they want to go to. i'm pretty sure my mum wouldn't relish going through the catacombs but both of my sisters will like it. and it's not like i had a very good time planning the osaka/kyoto trip either my mum grumbled at me for like an entire year after that about how it wasn't a fun trip at all. helloooooo, you said we shouldn't go to universal studios and all so i had to make do with other touristy attractions right. it's not my fault they were all temples since kyoto's famed for its temples. -_-

hehe maybe i should make the europe trip a homage to assassin's creed and visit all the places featured in it. that'll probably make me exempted from planning all future trips till about 2025, which pretty much suits me just fine.

okay i will stop being an ass.

haha so many things i have to stop being/having.

okay back to my report. i can't wait for monday to be over now, because after handing it that report and getting my presentation done i'm going to feel so, so relieved. and then there's the js project, but that can wait a little while. okay back to being busy.

i think i'm a total failure at group work. which is why i do best in projects which are either individual or if i'm in a group that lets me do what i want.

the irony of it all, when people i detest most are those who are just like me.

anyway i am glad it's the weekend. need to get a present for my dad's birthday, and i have a ton of assignments to catch up on.

i know i'm being a total fangirl, but my heart literally leaps when i hear wheesung sing (stop with the wheesing jokes you yvon of the yukon). or even when he's just talking, because his voice is so amazingly soft and gentle in speech but when he sings it's so powerful. no matter how upset i feel listening to his songs always, always makes me feel so much better afterwards. it's really strange how affected i am by his songs. even edison chen didn't feel the same for me, and you know how crazy i am over edison. he is seriously the most amazing singer i have ever known.

i was watching his comeback stage on kbs's music bank, and he sounds exactly the same as in the recorded track when he's singing live. that's how good his voice is. please let hmv bring the cd in i want to hold it in my hands haha.

why do i not understand korean ):

i've only heard three tracks so far from vocolate and already it sounds amazing. i cannot wait to get the album! maybe i'll just go ahead and order it online because i really don't want to wait till it finally comes to singapore. i'll go check with hmv first i guess.

it's really amazing!! and wheesung will have his comeback stage tomorrow on music bank. i sure hope someone uploads it soon. i'll stay glued to my tv in the meantime and see if i can catch the delayed airing of the show on cable.

ahh. i love love love wheesung's new album. today is one of the happiest days i've had this year. it's kind of sad and funny at the same time don't you think haha. okay i'm going to go listen to them again. and again. and again.

in case anyone is remotely interested (you won't regret it click and listen!) here's his title track:

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the other tracks were released. thank you for making me so happy. (:

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music: jooreureuk; wheesung

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keep safe.