as simple as love should be, but never is.
a hundred ways to say your name
i avoid speaking your name in conversation,
throwing it to the air as if it were nothing
more than an assumption of you; it is my last
mode of defence. the last item of clothing
to discard before i realise i'm naked in public.
because they can hear it in my voice. i know
even in that one short syllable that means
everything and nothing; your name is as common
as you are rare. as easy as you are not.
as simple as love should be, but never is.
but when i'm alone, i tie my tongue softly
round the familiar sound, as if pronouncing
with conviction the phonetics of desire
will cause time to pause just long enough
for the earth to hear me naming my loss.
-- tania de rozario
saw this at the esplanade linkway today, when i was out with huiyi, dawn, boon wei and moses. the funny thing about this was that it wasn't even the focal point of the whole display -- it was only an accompanying caption of sorts. the main part of the installation was lined paper with seemingly random phrases on them, which i should have taken a photo of but dumbly enough forgot to. it's really nice, isn't it. and there are countless ways to interpret it and each one gives the whole piece a different significance and meaning altogether. go walk by it if you've got the time.
anyway, went out today with huiyi, dawn, boon wei and moses. it turned into a strangely arty day even though we never planned for it that way. i joined them about two hours late because i couldn't wake up early enough, after which we went to soup spoon for lunch and dawn went off for her driving lesson. after lunch we went to udders at novena for ice-cream where they gave us amazingly huge scoops of ice-cream. it's very good value for money! unlike at places like gelare, where the scoops they give you are tiny and still cost more than they do at udders. following that we went to kbox at marina square. haha it's really only my second time kboxing, but i think i had fun. stuffed ourselves full with peanuts and crackers that were exorbitantly priced, and then we headed over to esplanade intending to just sit around and talk. in the end we were just in time to catch one of those concourse performances by this band called "paul does funk", who were really good. at least with my very minimal knowledge of guitars and drums i thought they were awesome. huiyi and i were so amazed that they didn't have to pluck the guitar strings to produce sound hahaha but it turned out that they had to step on some funny pedal in order to produce sound by just touching the strings. see, that's the difference between someone who knows guitar (dawn) and those who know quite little (huiyi and i). plus the drummer was really cool! and he had this very nice smile. i think drummers (most of them at least) are very amazing. i wish i'd learnt drums when i was younger.
tuesday, we had an xbox outing at peiyen's house for the first time. very few people could make it this time though; only yimean, francis, sam, me and peiyen were around. and yimean left after a while. haha i love watching francis play. he's damn funny!
francis during halo: i'm going to go through the teleporter. *makes teleporting sound*
francis during gow: *runs far ahead to melee enemies then gets beaten down* OMG COME HELP ME MICHELLE I'M HERE HEEEEEEREEEE HEEEEEREEEE *makes funny sounds*
okay, i guess it doesn't sound half as funny when i type it out like this. you've got to be there to know how hilarious it was. and there was also the whole damage modifier bit where if you set it to 0% it says something like "the player can do nothing but glare and think angry thoughts" which made me laugh so much. honestly, half the time i was laughing so much i couldn't play, and then i'd suddenly get assassinated from behind by francis who sneakily popped up while i was trying to stop laughing.
monday and wednesday, i got to work with wynne! haha work was never more fun. we talked about lots of random stuff, and did ring-a-word puzzles because there weren't many customers. then we competed to see who was faster at doing them, and wynne won almost every time! haha i am so going to hone my ring-a-word skills so i will win the next time round.
i need to do my university applications!! i've been neglecting them for a while, but i really need to get down to doing it now. and i'm working the next four days in a row, so i won't have much time to think about it. oh no, now i'm feeling kind of stressed because the deadline for applications suddenly seems so close. okay. i'm off to go and do something about it.
music: xiao jiu wo; lin jun jie and charlene choi
Labels: amusements, day-to-day, xbox
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