and i was dying inside to hold you.
i've got a pretty new laptop, in burgundy! it's all sleek and shiny and begging to be used. i really did plan to buy it with my pay, but my dad bought it for me instead. i'm thinking i should at least pay for half of it so i'd take better care of it since it's literally my own hard-earned money.
the crowds at the it fair are really crazy though. you can't move without knocking into someone, or having someone knock into you which happens so very often even the most mild-mannered of people would get annoyed. and surprisingly enough, even with so many people roaming about suntec, there aren't that many customers coming into the shop. we barely got sales today, and our first sale was made at 8 plus. we were desperate, and the manager was worried to the extent that he told us to sms him if we made any sales. it was quite funny really, come to think of it.
i'm currently playing "dying inside to hold you" on repeat. it's such a mambo kind of song, and i'd never have heard/come to like it if not for the cd mix in the shop. after hearing it about five times a day, it kind of grows on you i think. at least the chorus does, anyway.
and i was dying inside to hold you
couldn't believe what i felt for you
dying inside i was dying inside
but i couldn't bring myself to touch you
okay, i know the lyrics are kind of cheesy and stupid. then again, i'm a sucker for lyrics like that.
like the ones for ss501's "because i'm stupid". or the ones in "starlight tears" by what's-her-name-again. i suppose i shouldn't put down all the lyrics here because i'll only seem like a lovesick weirdo. but they're nice lyrics, and they're nice songs. i don't understand why the boys over flowers soundtrack got slammed so much.
i realise, i never ever use my camera anymore. which is a pretty bad thing, since it means i wasted so much money on it. therefore i've decided to bring it around all the time, even if it's just to take random photos of random things/candid photos of people when they're not looking. haha. even though i don't like being in photos, i really don't mind taking photos. it's fun going through the whole process of deciding what to take and then how you should take it to best capture whatever feeling you're trying to produce. okay, that probably made no sense. and it's not like i take amazing photos anyway. and i realise -- like ale who also takes lots of random photos -- i've actually amassed quite a lot of very random candid photos of people when they're not looking. mostly they look kind of emo, because their heads are either down or with that looking-into-the-distance-forlornly gaze on their faces. purely unintentional, actually.
okay, done installing everything on my pretty new laptop, which i have named meeep. don't ask me why, because i randomly typed that out when it prompted me to name it. no one's ever going to see that name anyway, right? except you, who just read till here.
ntu and nus open house tomorrow, then i have to rush home to do up applications and stuff since i'll be busy with work and stuff the next few days. work is eating up all my time, but i'm almost glad for it because it means i don't have too much time to think about things i shouldn't be thinking about.
sigh. sometimes i feel like such a mess these days.
music: starlight tears; boys over flowers ost
Labels: thoughts
tune out the world ; 2:19 AM
