Tuesday, July 28, 2009
i just want to.
ESTRINA! this reminded me so much of you!
haha estrina really resembles lee si young. even their personalities are kind of similar. if you have the time you can go watch the episodes on we got married with lee si young and junjin too. (:
anyway everything in fass is confusing. okay must study for test.
music: hey ya; junjin
tune out the world ; 11:52 AM
haha estrina really resembles lee si young. even their personalities are kind of similar. if you have the time you can go watch the episodes on we got married with lee si young and junjin too. (:
anyway everything in fass is confusing. okay must study for test.
music: hey ya; junjin
Labels: thoughts
tune out the world ; 11:52 AM
Monday, July 27, 2009
i must not even know my own thoughts
there was a monster beetle on the curtain at my front door!
i wanted to put my hand there, as a means of comparison to show how big it was but i was too scared because it really was very big. seriously! at least 5cm long and about 3cm wide.
okay anyway i had fun today. (:
music: 7days; wheesung
tune out the world ; 1:31 AM
i wanted to put my hand there, as a means of comparison to show how big it was but i was too scared because it really was very big. seriously! at least 5cm long and about 3cm wide.okay anyway i had fun today. (:
music: 7days; wheesung
Labels: photos
tune out the world ; 1:31 AM
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
as you're drawn deeper
is it just me, or is the post editor in blogger shot? because right now i'm typing in a tiny box pushed to the very bottom of the screen, while random words float above the box. it's all very strange.
anyhow, caught harry potter with amos, fran, chin and weiting yesterday. so sorry i couldn't give any of you a lift and rushed off so soon! my mum had to rush to go fetch my sister from nus and i think she was a little annoyed. had a good dinner at astons before the movie, during which wynne joined us and made us laugh a lot because she had very funny stories to tell us. and the movie wasn't all that bad i suppose, but it really wouldn't make much sense whether you'd read the book or not. if you had read it you'd be so aghast at the gaping plot holes and how the entire thing was so disjointed. if you hadn't you'd come out of the cinema thinking harry potter was all romance and fluff. and you wouldn't understand lots of it anyway. the books were infinitely better, even though i feel like the worst literature student in the world for saying that.
then i got in a harry potter mood and reread the last book today, and say what you will but i think j.k rowling honestly handled snape's death scene very masterfully. fred's as well. it's only on second reading (okay don't laugh at me you smart arses who got it the first time round) that i realised the significance of snape's insistence that harry look at him while he lay there dying. and that put so much more meaning to the entire scene, and makes you ache for his death all the more.
okay never mind that entire harry potter ramble.
i am going to study hard for my placement test! maybe i'll miraculously get a waiver and not have to waste time in beginner japanese again.
music: wae naman; wheesung
tune out the world ; 11:08 PM
anyhow, caught harry potter with amos, fran, chin and weiting yesterday. so sorry i couldn't give any of you a lift and rushed off so soon! my mum had to rush to go fetch my sister from nus and i think she was a little annoyed. had a good dinner at astons before the movie, during which wynne joined us and made us laugh a lot because she had very funny stories to tell us. and the movie wasn't all that bad i suppose, but it really wouldn't make much sense whether you'd read the book or not. if you had read it you'd be so aghast at the gaping plot holes and how the entire thing was so disjointed. if you hadn't you'd come out of the cinema thinking harry potter was all romance and fluff. and you wouldn't understand lots of it anyway. the books were infinitely better, even though i feel like the worst literature student in the world for saying that.
then i got in a harry potter mood and reread the last book today, and say what you will but i think j.k rowling honestly handled snape's death scene very masterfully. fred's as well. it's only on second reading (okay don't laugh at me you smart arses who got it the first time round) that i realised the significance of snape's insistence that harry look at him while he lay there dying. and that put so much more meaning to the entire scene, and makes you ache for his death all the more.
okay never mind that entire harry potter ramble.
i am going to study hard for my placement test! maybe i'll miraculously get a waiver and not have to waste time in beginner japanese again.
music: wae naman; wheesung
Labels: thoughts
tune out the world ; 11:08 PM
Monday, July 20, 2009
i wonder what dreams you dream.
ahh 7 days is an amazing song! and it has such cute lyrics. haha you really can't help smiling when you listen to it. okay sorry for the fangirl ramble.
i'm beginning to like his third album a lot! it gets to you the more you listen to it.
music: 7 days; wheesung
tune out the world ; 4:17 PM
i'm beginning to like his third album a lot! it gets to you the more you listen to it.
music: 7 days; wheesung
Labels: wheesung
tune out the world ; 4:17 PM
close your eyes to the truth, so you don't feel the pain.
i got a new template up! okay so i really didn't do anything much to it. but i really liked that line. and it isn't supposed to be a fangirl template either! i just liked that scene from the video, and the other random pictures from deviantart. alright so it's quite a sloppy skin actually. never mind, i like it for the moment so i'll stick with it i guess.
i realise i have this horrible habit of leaving my phone alone for the entire day if i'm at home all day. now i've got 4 messages and oh no, 3 missed calls. okay i'm off to go reply and call people back.
music: wanbyeokhan namja; wheesung
tune out the world ; 4:01 PM
i realise i have this horrible habit of leaving my phone alone for the entire day if i'm at home all day. now i've got 4 messages and oh no, 3 missed calls. okay i'm off to go reply and call people back.
music: wanbyeokhan namja; wheesung
Labels: thoughts
tune out the world ; 4:01 PM
Sunday, July 19, 2009
i liked that your voice was so close.
i don't want the holidays to end so fast!! it's kind of hard to imagine school starting soon. i like being in this state of having the time to do whatever i want to do, and i really don't relish the thought of having to go back to being a slave of education again.
and next week seems like a bad week already because i have driving lessons and random things to do at nus that require me to be there for four days in a row from monday to thursday. i have no idea why but apparently i'm required to go for a japanese language placement test even though i'm quite sure i won't be able to be exempted for the first level module anyway. so embarrassing, going for the test and still not being exempted. and there are the fass briefings on monday and tuesday, and registration on wednesday and i also have to book my medical checkup on one of those days because i don't want to go all the way down to nus on another day just to get the checkup done. why is there so much to do??
went out today with my sister. and i got my second wheesung cd! which happens to be his third album, and it sounds okay. i think i prefer the songs in the more recent cds though. but it's still a pretty good album, in the sense that you can sit through the entire thing without wanting to skip to the next song.
thank goodness for hmv and their always stocking cds you'd never find elsewhere. even if it's at exorbitant prices grumble grumble.
after that we met the rest of the family at plaza sing's manhattan fish market for dinner. my treat! but i don't think my parents enjoyed the dinner particularly much. they would probably have been happier with a zhi char dinner even if it was at a random food centre. but i wanted to treat them to something nice! and not something we would eat on any other day anyway. oh well. i'm still awfully bloated from dinner anyway it's almost overly filling. but the food's honestly quite good.
random pictures of the family. and no pictures of food, unfortunately, because i was starving and wolfed everything down before even thinking to take a picture. just imagine fish. because that's all it was. very good fish.
music: love seat; wheesung
tune out the world ; 12:06 AM
and next week seems like a bad week already because i have driving lessons and random things to do at nus that require me to be there for four days in a row from monday to thursday. i have no idea why but apparently i'm required to go for a japanese language placement test even though i'm quite sure i won't be able to be exempted for the first level module anyway. so embarrassing, going for the test and still not being exempted. and there are the fass briefings on monday and tuesday, and registration on wednesday and i also have to book my medical checkup on one of those days because i don't want to go all the way down to nus on another day just to get the checkup done. why is there so much to do??
went out today with my sister. and i got my second wheesung cd! which happens to be his third album, and it sounds okay. i think i prefer the songs in the more recent cds though. but it's still a pretty good album, in the sense that you can sit through the entire thing without wanting to skip to the next song.
thank goodness for hmv and their always stocking cds you'd never find elsewhere. even if it's at exorbitant prices grumble grumble.after that we met the rest of the family at plaza sing's manhattan fish market for dinner. my treat! but i don't think my parents enjoyed the dinner particularly much. they would probably have been happier with a zhi char dinner even if it was at a random food centre. but i wanted to treat them to something nice! and not something we would eat on any other day anyway. oh well. i'm still awfully bloated from dinner anyway it's almost overly filling. but the food's honestly quite good.
random pictures of the family. and no pictures of food, unfortunately, because i was starving and wolfed everything down before even thinking to take a picture. just imagine fish. because that's all it was. very good fish.music: love seat; wheesung
Labels: day-to-day, photos, wheesung
tune out the world ; 12:06 AM
Thursday, July 16, 2009
you're an extension of my existence
i know i don't normally go for such cutesy stuff, but this was reaaally hard to resist. artbox stuff are so pretty! i think the sales staff must have been pretty annoyed with me because i took about a million years to pick one out. my mum as well, who was so painfully patient while i took an eternity deciding which one i wanted to get. thank goodness my mum is so wonderful. i should probably have waited and dragged someone to go get something else from artbox with me so we could get their membership card, but i wanted to have it as soon as possible. lydia said she might be going down to get hers in a while, so if we can use combined receipts i'll hop down and pass her mine. more incentive to shop at artbox if we have the card!plans to go university shopping with wynne sam and rab seem to be falling through because all of them are so busy. which is really sad, because i have my pay to spend! what's the fun in having money to spend if you haven't got people to go buying stuff with sigh. maybe i should just take my mum's advice and save it all. but there's stuff i want to get...
music: wanbyeokhan namja - wheesung
tune out the world ; 6:28 PM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
i didn't want to be a part of it.
i am officially...
jobless. or should i say, jobless!
i've been half-dreading and half-anticipating my last day of work. and now that day won't ever come about since my last day was technically the 10th. didn't even get to really say bye to the place, since i didn't know my last day was going to be my last day. when i read mr tan's sms i don't know why but the first thing that popped into my head was beyonce's irreplaceable. haha! it's all catherine's influence i tell you, she keeps blasting songs like that in the shop and making me write the lyrics down so now i think in terms of songs. but that song is more than a little out of context. never mind! can always pop back to visit. and rummage for free samples!! catherine and michelle tan and belinda and elena we're all depending on you all now. (:
still going back tomorrow to drop off the shirts (aww, i'll miss the shirt with the twisted smiley) and more importantly, to get my pay and commission. and i'll have to go pick up my laptop that's finally done being serviced. maybe i'll hop on over to heeren and spend my commission on wheesung cds. which reminds me! i totally can't remember where i placed my wheesung cd. i know i left it on that small shelf thing under the table downstairs for the longest time, but now i don't remember where i put it after that, or whether i kept it away at all. this does not bode well for the rest of the cds i'm planning to get.
and i don't understand why everything to do with uni preparation is so horridly complicated. it's a huge leap from jc to uni; it's really all just spoon-feeding in jc, and now suddenly you're expected to know how and when to do everything properly. it's all quite annoying.
i want to change a template. lots of time to do up a nice one now.
sam is now back anyway! welcome back. (:
music: wae naman; wheesung
tune out the world ; 3:05 PM
jobless. or should i say, jobless!
i've been half-dreading and half-anticipating my last day of work. and now that day won't ever come about since my last day was technically the 10th. didn't even get to really say bye to the place, since i didn't know my last day was going to be my last day. when i read mr tan's sms i don't know why but the first thing that popped into my head was beyonce's irreplaceable. haha! it's all catherine's influence i tell you, she keeps blasting songs like that in the shop and making me write the lyrics down so now i think in terms of songs. but that song is more than a little out of context. never mind! can always pop back to visit. and rummage for free samples!! catherine and michelle tan and belinda and elena we're all depending on you all now. (:
still going back tomorrow to drop off the shirts (aww, i'll miss the shirt with the twisted smiley) and more importantly, to get my pay and commission. and i'll have to go pick up my laptop that's finally done being serviced. maybe i'll hop on over to heeren and spend my commission on wheesung cds. which reminds me! i totally can't remember where i placed my wheesung cd. i know i left it on that small shelf thing under the table downstairs for the longest time, but now i don't remember where i put it after that, or whether i kept it away at all. this does not bode well for the rest of the cds i'm planning to get.
and i don't understand why everything to do with uni preparation is so horridly complicated. it's a huge leap from jc to uni; it's really all just spoon-feeding in jc, and now suddenly you're expected to know how and when to do everything properly. it's all quite annoying.
i want to change a template. lots of time to do up a nice one now.
sam is now back anyway! welcome back. (:
music: wae naman; wheesung
Labels: day-to-day, thoughts
tune out the world ; 3:05 PM
Saturday, July 4, 2009
for a second.
... i cannot believe i agreed to work more. ):
oh well. technically i'm only working about three days more, but it feels like an eternity. shall not think about it!
anyway, my laptop totally died on me! it's really awful, but fortunately all the important stuff (read: fangirl material) are in my hard disk. which is incidentally, my best buy ever i think. i'm going to have to bring the laptop down to the service centre soon, because they say the repairs could take anywhere from a few days to like 6 weeks!! i don't think i can wait 6 weeks. or if i have to, then i hope those 6 weeks start real soon! it's somewhere in dhoby ghaut mrt apparently, which is quite strange because i've never seen the place before even though i go there fairly often. shall go there when i next have an off day i guess.
and i'm really ultra forgetful!! i happily slept in until close to 11 today, and then went on to arrange an impromptu meeting with wynne and only realised after wynne asked me about driving that i had a lesson in the morning today. i didn't tell my mum because i know she'll get really angry and irritated so shhh shhhhh i'll make up for it and try and learn like extra extra fast for the next lesson.
met wynne for lunch today, and we had tom yum ramen! good stuff. and we popped by suntec to visit lydia and met the new girl lyna, who i'll be working with soon! she looks like a really nice girl. and by this time lydia would have ended her last day at work!! i would have ended work today too, but... ahhhhhh. okay, extra money to make up for forgetting my driving lesson this morning.
something's wrong with blogger and i can't upload pictures but i will once it's done being horrible!
i feel so lethargic at the thought of work tomorrow! even though it's only a half day. but still! okay it will pass in no time at all. and i realise, after i leave there'll be no music at the shop because i need to take my mp3 away! ahhhhhh i need to find a working thumbdrive by tomorrow. :/
music: choco luv; wheesung
tune out the world ; 11:40 PM
oh well. technically i'm only working about three days more, but it feels like an eternity. shall not think about it!
anyway, my laptop totally died on me! it's really awful, but fortunately all the important stuff (read: fangirl material) are in my hard disk. which is incidentally, my best buy ever i think. i'm going to have to bring the laptop down to the service centre soon, because they say the repairs could take anywhere from a few days to like 6 weeks!! i don't think i can wait 6 weeks. or if i have to, then i hope those 6 weeks start real soon! it's somewhere in dhoby ghaut mrt apparently, which is quite strange because i've never seen the place before even though i go there fairly often. shall go there when i next have an off day i guess.
and i'm really ultra forgetful!! i happily slept in until close to 11 today, and then went on to arrange an impromptu meeting with wynne and only realised after wynne asked me about driving that i had a lesson in the morning today. i didn't tell my mum because i know she'll get really angry and irritated so shhh shhhhh i'll make up for it and try and learn like extra extra fast for the next lesson.
met wynne for lunch today, and we had tom yum ramen! good stuff. and we popped by suntec to visit lydia and met the new girl lyna, who i'll be working with soon! she looks like a really nice girl. and by this time lydia would have ended her last day at work!! i would have ended work today too, but... ahhhhhh. okay, extra money to make up for forgetting my driving lesson this morning.
something's wrong with blogger and i can't upload pictures but i will once it's done being horrible!
i feel so lethargic at the thought of work tomorrow! even though it's only a half day. but still! okay it will pass in no time at all. and i realise, after i leave there'll be no music at the shop because i need to take my mp3 away! ahhhhhh i need to find a working thumbdrive by tomorrow. :/
music: choco luv; wheesung
Labels: bad stuff, day-to-day, photos
tune out the world ; 11:40 PM
i'm happy just knowing.
last few days have been less than stellar, but just the thought of work-free days looming ahead makes me think i can actually get through the next week both physically and mentally intact. i almost wish i'd done what wynne did and quit at the end of june instead of offering to stay on for a while longer. recently mr tan has very high expectations of us all that are hard to meet. especially when morale is so low partly because we're about to leave and partly because he's been in quite a foul mood the whole time since his return. thing is, i kind of get where he's coming from because if i were him i would expect us to be able to do simple stuff like making sure the shop is in order instead of just throwing every single problem at him. i should have just pressed on and smsed him in the morning about the faulty light; that was my fault. but i think lydia's right when she says sometimes he's overly harsh with his words. it's like, one mistake erases all the good you have done the past few months.
okay, never mind. we should totally get that "don't be angry" boardgame for him as a parting gift. haha! which reminds me. another thing that has to be done.
yesterday was horrible as well, because we came home to a floor splattered with blood. and i mean that literally. and i only realised that after i'd trampled halfway to the door when my dad said (too late) "mind the blood" in chinese. so i looked down and it looked like someone had just shot a zombie in the gut and said zombie had exploded into multiple blood splatters. the source of all the blood turned out to be my dog, who was sort of cowering in a corner with his head tilted all funny and blood dripping out of his ear. it was really scary. i expected dalphie to keel over and die any moment. after two bouts of cleaning and attempting to stop the bleeding we gave up and sent him to vet after my dad had a screaming fit about having to do all the cleaning up and yelling about how we hadn't taken care of the dog the whole month he was gone. (on a side note, i was extremely pissed off at him because he kept yelling even though it was doing nothing to help the situation and he kept making himself out to be a self-sacrificial matyr for doing household chores and insisting we hadn't done a thing the entire month.) you're never going to guess the cause of bleeding.
...
there were frigging maggots in his ear. all this time i've been joking and laughing about how lazy my dog is and i never realised that'd be such horrible consequences for his laziness. he doesn't do a thing about the flies that constantly swarm him and two days ago a fly finally got the chance to lay eggs in his ear, which hatched maggots that promptly began chewing out his ear tissue. and there was so much blood, and the poor thing was whining and was in obvious discomfort and pain and the worst thing was we couldn't do a damn thing about it until we got him sent to the vet. the whole time i was thinking how dalphie could have had a much better life if he'd been pet to people who actually knew how to care for him well.
anyway we arrived at home around 1 plus, but we all had to shower because we had blood splattered on us and the blood smelled horrid. it smelled like what i'd imagine zombie guts would smell like. :/ so in the end i ended up sleeping near 3am, which meant that i was completely zoned out today. or yesterday since it's past 12am. he's much better now though, and happier i think because we're paying more attention to him now.
and i'm ultra grouchy these few days too, because of the chain of bad stuff that keep happening. so i snap a lot at my parents and at people around me, and then i feel so bad after that it just adds on to my already grouchy mood. if this goes on i'm going to have to dye my hair green and go live in a trash can.
music: morning; wheesung
tune out the world ; 12:09 AM
okay, never mind. we should totally get that "don't be angry" boardgame for him as a parting gift. haha! which reminds me. another thing that has to be done.
yesterday was horrible as well, because we came home to a floor splattered with blood. and i mean that literally. and i only realised that after i'd trampled halfway to the door when my dad said (too late) "mind the blood" in chinese. so i looked down and it looked like someone had just shot a zombie in the gut and said zombie had exploded into multiple blood splatters. the source of all the blood turned out to be my dog, who was sort of cowering in a corner with his head tilted all funny and blood dripping out of his ear. it was really scary. i expected dalphie to keel over and die any moment. after two bouts of cleaning and attempting to stop the bleeding we gave up and sent him to vet after my dad had a screaming fit about having to do all the cleaning up and yelling about how we hadn't taken care of the dog the whole month he was gone. (on a side note, i was extremely pissed off at him because he kept yelling even though it was doing nothing to help the situation and he kept making himself out to be a self-sacrificial matyr for doing household chores and insisting we hadn't done a thing the entire month.) you're never going to guess the cause of bleeding.
...
there were frigging maggots in his ear. all this time i've been joking and laughing about how lazy my dog is and i never realised that'd be such horrible consequences for his laziness. he doesn't do a thing about the flies that constantly swarm him and two days ago a fly finally got the chance to lay eggs in his ear, which hatched maggots that promptly began chewing out his ear tissue. and there was so much blood, and the poor thing was whining and was in obvious discomfort and pain and the worst thing was we couldn't do a damn thing about it until we got him sent to the vet. the whole time i was thinking how dalphie could have had a much better life if he'd been pet to people who actually knew how to care for him well.
anyway we arrived at home around 1 plus, but we all had to shower because we had blood splattered on us and the blood smelled horrid. it smelled like what i'd imagine zombie guts would smell like. :/ so in the end i ended up sleeping near 3am, which meant that i was completely zoned out today. or yesterday since it's past 12am. he's much better now though, and happier i think because we're paying more attention to him now.
and i'm ultra grouchy these few days too, because of the chain of bad stuff that keep happening. so i snap a lot at my parents and at people around me, and then i feel so bad after that it just adds on to my already grouchy mood. if this goes on i'm going to have to dye my hair green and go live in a trash can.
music: morning; wheesung
Labels: bad stuff, day-to-day, thoughts
tune out the world ; 12:09 AM
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
it's difficult to stand still.
met wynne and rab today! initially we planned to meet at tampines mrt at 12pm, but both rab and i ended up being late. i didn't mean to be late! i would have arrived on time but my bus refused to come. they had to send a new bus to the bus-stop to pick us up because apparently all the bus 10s were caught in a traffic jam and wouldn't be able to come for the next hour or so. i was about half and hour late, but rab beat my record and only arrived at 4pm haha! it's okay monster rab, i know you need a very long time to put on your human disguise. you're forgiven.
anyway, went to ikea with wynne first to eat meatballs! we were debating between the plate of 15 and the plate of 10, but in the end we decided not to be gluttons and to just go for the plate of 10 instead. thank goodness we did, because both of us were quite stuffed after eating just 10 meatballs. then we shopped around ikea for a bit, before going back to tampines to wait for monster rab. had lots of fun with the two of them! when sam comes back, we can all go out again. and again. and again. (:
and we had this fairly amusing conversation. haha! estrina if you're reading this don't be angry! we were just talking about how drama some people and their relationships were, and it somehow turned into this. estrina's relationships are like hollywood blockbuster movies! very very happening. haha like how so much happened when we didn't see her for little over a week. then sam and peiyen are like korean dramas. very ambiguous. rab said they're like "sometimes have and sometimes don't have" haha. but quite entertaining too. rab and charles are like taiwan idol dramas. forever in conflict. but somehow they still end up okay. and wynne and samuel are like channel 8 dramas (wynne says boring and safe but i say better than always being in conflict!). chin and weiting are like hallmark family drama serials on sunday afternoons! always peaceful.
given a choice between a bad boy and a nice guy who would you pick? the first will be so fraught with conflict but at least it'll be interesting, and the latter will be safe but boring. and i was telling wynne girls are just like guys there're always the guys they like and want to be with but that guy might not be the one they eventually bring home to meet the parents. you know how guys always say stuff like so-and-so is good for a fling but not good for marrying and all. okay so maybe that's not what they always say. guess it's best to find one who balances both extremes well. -coughedisoncough-
driving tomorrow! will meet wynne there. i'm kind of nervous it's been over a week since my last lesson. darn the horrible booking system.
music: ga; wheesung
tune out the world ; 10:34 PM
anyway, went to ikea with wynne first to eat meatballs! we were debating between the plate of 15 and the plate of 10, but in the end we decided not to be gluttons and to just go for the plate of 10 instead. thank goodness we did, because both of us were quite stuffed after eating just 10 meatballs. then we shopped around ikea for a bit, before going back to tampines to wait for monster rab. had lots of fun with the two of them! when sam comes back, we can all go out again. and again. and again. (:
and we had this fairly amusing conversation. haha! estrina if you're reading this don't be angry! we were just talking about how drama some people and their relationships were, and it somehow turned into this. estrina's relationships are like hollywood blockbuster movies! very very happening. haha like how so much happened when we didn't see her for little over a week. then sam and peiyen are like korean dramas. very ambiguous. rab said they're like "sometimes have and sometimes don't have" haha. but quite entertaining too. rab and charles are like taiwan idol dramas. forever in conflict. but somehow they still end up okay. and wynne and samuel are like channel 8 dramas (wynne says boring and safe but i say better than always being in conflict!). chin and weiting are like hallmark family drama serials on sunday afternoons! always peaceful.
given a choice between a bad boy and a nice guy who would you pick? the first will be so fraught with conflict but at least it'll be interesting, and the latter will be safe but boring. and i was telling wynne girls are just like guys there're always the guys they like and want to be with but that guy might not be the one they eventually bring home to meet the parents. you know how guys always say stuff like so-and-so is good for a fling but not good for marrying and all. okay so maybe that's not what they always say. guess it's best to find one who balances both extremes well. -coughedisoncough-
driving tomorrow! will meet wynne there. i'm kind of nervous it's been over a week since my last lesson. darn the horrible booking system.
music: ga; wheesung
Labels: day-to-day, thoughts
tune out the world ; 10:34 PM
you were the first.
i think, if i were to sum up my entire person in three words they'd be "eager to please". it explains why i'm always so affected by criticisms or when i get rebuffed in the slightest. i don't get all breakdown-and-cry kind of affected, but i end up thinking about it over and over again for the next week at least. i don't like the feeling of having someone upset with me, or having someone around me upset for that matter, because for the former i obviously want to make others happy and for the latter it makes me feel lacking when i can't do anything to help that person.
and sometimes i feel it'd feel so much better if people were just angry instead of disappointed. simply the use of that word makes you feel bad already, for letting that person down in the first place.
anyway, i was so preoccupied thinking about things that i did so many silly mistakes today. first i scanned the wrong item for a customer and ended up having to top up for him. then when i went for my break i dropped my phone into a bowl of laksa. now my phone smells of prawn. and lanvin's eclat, because i tried to mask the smell by swiping my phone with a cotton wool of eclat. it just smells weird now really. but much better than right after it took that swim! and it was so embarassing, because the guy behind me gasped so loudly and said "oh my god" while the stall auntie was all "wah, why you like that?!" in chinese. so much for taking particular care for this phone huh.
i must learn to focus on things i'm doing at the moment.
ikea lunch with wynne and rab in about 12 hours. rab the quarantined is now rab the unquarantined! haven't seen her for so long. not that i'm looking forward to it. honest! why would i look forward to seeing my arch-enemy rab.
anyway, for lydia again! http://community.livejournal.com/spreehouse/3586747.html#cutid1 and i hope your swollen gum is better now! take care, and don't be upset if you are. or maybe i'm thinking too much. see you maybe tomorrow, or on thursday! (:
on a side note, wheesung's voice in morning is so endearing. haha! yes i had to insert a random fangirl ramble.
music: morning; wheesung
tune out the world ; 12:56 AM
and sometimes i feel it'd feel so much better if people were just angry instead of disappointed. simply the use of that word makes you feel bad already, for letting that person down in the first place.
anyway, i was so preoccupied thinking about things that i did so many silly mistakes today. first i scanned the wrong item for a customer and ended up having to top up for him. then when i went for my break i dropped my phone into a bowl of laksa. now my phone smells of prawn. and lanvin's eclat, because i tried to mask the smell by swiping my phone with a cotton wool of eclat. it just smells weird now really. but much better than right after it took that swim! and it was so embarassing, because the guy behind me gasped so loudly and said "oh my god" while the stall auntie was all "wah, why you like that?!" in chinese. so much for taking particular care for this phone huh.
i must learn to focus on things i'm doing at the moment.
ikea lunch with wynne and rab in about 12 hours. rab the quarantined is now rab the unquarantined! haven't seen her for so long. not that i'm looking forward to it. honest! why would i look forward to seeing my arch-enemy rab.
anyway, for lydia again! http://community.livejournal.com/spreehouse/3586747.html#cutid1 and i hope your swollen gum is better now! take care, and don't be upset if you are. or maybe i'm thinking too much. see you maybe tomorrow, or on thursday! (:
on a side note, wheesung's voice in morning is so endearing. haha! yes i had to insert a random fangirl ramble.
music: morning; wheesung
Labels: bad stuff, day-to-day, thoughts, wheesung
tune out the world ; 12:56 AM