i'm not emo, i'm just inherently sad.
finally there's time to catch my breath. it's just the second week of school and there's already so much to do. tutorials haven't even begun yet. i don't really want to think about how much worse it's going to get come next week when tutorials start. i'm probably having quite a good time in fass actually, compared to people in other faculties. like sam in architecture where she has to do things she has never ever done before and the workload is so much crazier than mine. so i'm not going to complain too much.
sadly it also seems like the whole eight month long break we had has definitely made me even dumber than i used to be. there are so many words in my readings that i have to guess the meaning of and some i actually have to refer to a dictionary in order to understand. i haven't had to use a dictionary for english words since primary school. it's kind of disheartening because i'm in a faculty that's going to need so much language prowess and i've always taken pride in at least being moderately good at english. and the readings are interesting but so hard to get through because i'm actually really trying to think through everything and link them to the things covered during lecture. and that means i take double the amount of time reading them so all week-long i haven't been able to complete the required readings before the lectures. plus the people in fass are honestly so proactive and expressive it's scary. for my japanese studies module there's a compulsory forum posting aspect and these people literally type out mini-essays for them.
okay so much for not complaining so much. no one ever said it was going to be easy anyway.
i feel so so guilty for yelling at my dog just now because he kept scratching at the door and whining. dogs have that puppy dog look down pat. they're masters at making you feel bad about scolding them.
anyway my sister is off in sweden and my parents are there till the 29th to help her get settled in and all. six months seems like a very indeterminate amount of time. it's not that long if you think about it, but then again a lot can happen in six months so it's not a very short period of time either. and my sister is a complete mousehunt addict. she's stuck without internet in sweden (how can that be??) so she smsed and told me to go convert cheese for her. -_____-
i need to go back to whathewants to get my last commission. anyone wants to go down? lydia the brushes arrived anyway so let's meet up soon! wynne said she'll be free next thursday so maybe we can meet up then.
music: narak; wheesung
Labels: day-to-day, thoughts
tune out the world ; 8:35 PM
