i've got another song recommendation!

i've had this song on repeat for the past two weeks i think. i don't think i even played wheesung's songs so much the first time i got to hear them. but it's honestly very addictive! here i go again with my lack of vocabulary, but i really think it's a nice song. anyway looking at them you probably wouldn't guess their ages but three out of five of them are younger than us (assuming you're my age), one's our age and the other one is a year older.

see what i mean about having achieved nothing!!

okay no my getting upset and feeling old isn't completely based on korean pop idols who are all young and have done so much. it's just reinforced by that. i was already feeling that way for a while before i linked the two together and got even more upset than i already was.

okay on to happier things. i really like minho's voice in that song up there! he's got a really nice deep voice. if you listened to/watched it he's the one in the blue jacket rapping in english. plus he's really good-looking! and he's also younger by a year. ):

anyway i was thinking tall dark and handsome really doesn't seem to be the perfect criteria for most girls nowadays. i guess tall and handsome will always be mainstays but i think having a nice deep voice must count for something too. and i know it's really weird for me to say this but i honestly think guys should be tall. tall guys just automatically look... more attractive? okay i guess tall for me wouldn't be very tall for most people anyway. they just have to be significantly taller than the girl and i guess they would be perfect in their eyes then. oh but bad posture is always not good. especially if you're tall, because then it's all emphasized. so good posture and height would be good.

i don't know what sparked that off. i think it was minho.

alright i should really be getting back to work. i've got a japanese midterm to study for, a literature review to do for approaches to js and a summary for comm management to do. and in week 8 there's a theories of new media midterm. i also have to get up-to-date on 3 weeks' worth of pop culture readings, 5 weeks' worth of new media theories readings and 3 weeks' worth of comm management readings. also i need to find some time to go down to suntec and get my paycheck. and i need to spring-clean because i really didn't have the time to do it before the chinese new year holiday and i have so much to clear out. plus i need to go to school tomorrow to have a consultation about my pop culture group project. *grumbles about travelling* oh well.

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getting swamped!

oh and i saw this spree for fujifilm polaroid cameras, which i really feel like getting but which will probably end up being a waste of money anyway. i really like the polaroid effect in photos though. they make even the most mediocre of objects seem magical.

(from violetjulia)

okay maybe you need to already be a really awesome photographer to take nice polaroids.

and i'm feeling really old all of a sudden. maybe it's just the teetering on the brink of reaching your 20s that makes you feel this way, but it's so weird thinking back on how old you are and your lack of any significant achievements. i mean, i haven't made a difference in anybody's lives, and nobody will remember me for anything if i happened to just disappear right about now. fading off into oblivion is a really scary thought. you don't have to be known half the world over, but it'd be nice to know that people will remember you and want to keep you in their memories if you were to leave. i'm beginning to see the point of taking photographs now. it's kind of to leave some mark on the world you're going to leave behind someday.

i still don't like taking photos though. and if you're wondering why in the world i want a polaroid camera then, it's so i can take photographs of other people and keep them. i almost miss the days of film cameras because now with digital cameras everything feels so much more transient. kind of like at any second people will leave you and you won't have anything physical left of them to hold on to.

thinking along lines like these make me wonder why i'm wasting the prime of my life away doing things i don't really care very much about. the other day i was talking to my sister and we were wondering how much more appropriate it'd be if we lived out our lives in reverse. get all the fun and enjoyment done while we're able to do so and then start going to school and stuff when we're not able to move as much and all. okay i know it's a completely flawed argument once you sit down and think it through, but on the surface it does seem like a much better way to live your life out.

also, i came across this on papertissue.tmblr:

(excerpt from Kafka on the Shore by Haruki Murakami)

i think i've mentioned this before, but there's a certain poetry in japanese that has been translated to english. which is one of the main reasons i picked up japanese in the first place (until i discovered other *ahem* reasons), because i wanted to know if it sounded as whimsical(?) in the original language itself. this reminds me of that poem that was up in the lit room board back in tj. again i think i've talked about this poem before -_- yes i'm totally running out of blogging material; it's the one by pablo neruda i think. i'm re-reading the poem now but it doesn't seem to feel like it did before or how i remember it felt, so i'm not sure if it's the same piece i'm looking at. in any case he's spanish and the original work was in spanish, so i was wondering if any of the original meaning could have been lost in translation.

oh and i thought it was kind of funny how above the poem ("don't go far off, not even for a day") there were google ads for treating sadness and depression haha.

alright work work like a miserable peon.

music: jojo; shinee