funny how so many christmas songs are about white christmases, when that doesn't happen for so many of us around the world. or perhaps it's not so funny after all, since the whole holiday originated from that part of the world. still i guess it'd be nice to have a white christmas at least once. we were so close to having that in europe last year, but we ended up spending it on the train to paris if i'm not wrong. perhaps if the exchange to japan really goes through i might stand a chance of seeing one next year? if the exchange goes through, that is. i'm getting kind of jittery that they have yet to send me dates for the submission of documents. i suppose i should just get all of it done first, but the testimonials part is holding me back. i've never liked having to submit testimonials. adding to that is the fact that i have done absolutely nothing in my year and a half of university besides studying. and i don't have tutors/lecturers in mind who would be able to write convincing testimonials for me. i've been told that these documents are really just a formality, but even then it would be good to have a decent testimonial.

speaking of white christmases, kim joo won's house in secret garden is unbelievably and ridiculously beautiful. especially when it snows. everything seems like it came right out of a fairytale. it's the kind of scenery you could stare at for hours and hours, hoping to imprint it in your memory but failing so woefully because you could never capture every detail minutely enough to make yourself remember exactly how it felt like seeing it then and there right before your eyes. which doesn't make sense because i obviously haven't seen that actual scenery, but it seems like it would be that kind of scenery to me. i would put up a screen capture of it but i haven't found one that perfectly shows its beauty yet. you'd need a video to show that because fitting with his chaebol character it's also as ridiculously huge as it is beautiful. -_-

if i were a sim, that'd be my lifetime wish. to own so lovely a house i wouldn't want to leave it much. i'd fill it with a library of books and dramas and stay in all day. but i'd never find one here in singapore. here's much too rushed a place.

anyway there are way too many dramas called secret garden. there's another older korean drama, a taiwanese drama and now a new local one coming up on channel u. they really need to be more imaginative with their titles. oh but the channel u drama has tender huang anyway. you know, the one i mentioned in an earlier blog post some where.

and ouch my eye hurts i think i might have sore eye or something. my left eye is now so swollen it's half the size of my right eye. and it's completely bloodshot. and it twinges when i stare at something for too long. and the smoke from the family bbq we had earlier today doesn't help at all either. great timing anyway, murphy. you really know how to upset plans.

oh and here's wheesung's remake of michael jackson's you are not alone. i'm not a michael jackson fan, so i'm sure this is a biased fan speaking but i think i prefer wheesung's version. although he's more well-known for his r&b tracks i've always preferred his ballads and his softer songs. okay maybe softer is not the word. it's just the quality of his voice in the song. anyway i just thought it made for a good christmas song even though it's not directly related to christmas. merry christmas, whoever's reading this! (:

came online with every intention of changing the template, but then i looked at it again and realised i didn't want to change it any longer. it's still one of my favourite quotes ever, and it still applies so i guess i'll be sticking to this template for a while longer. it's just that i was looking through my photos from korea and there was a photo i wanted to use in a new template but maybe next time i guess, when i finally tire of this present one.

don't ever wish your life was more like a hollywood movie/tv drama because seriously the excitement is more tiring than anything. excitement is quite the inappropriate word in this context though. i've just had enough with going to places not intended for frequent visits and are really uncomfortable places anywhere. there's always some kind of undercurrent of threat and death behind all that 'place of healing' idea. it's where people get healed but at the same time it's also where people get lost.

with everything that's been happening it almost feels like someone's out to get us or something. silly idea, i know, but you can't help but think this way after the disturbing frequency of accidents happening.

anyway back. genting doesn't seem to hold the same magic it did back when we were kids. the whole place seems more dingy and run-down than ever before, and you seem to notice all the hairline cracks and spots that you never saw before. the mascots are just people in frumpy costumes, and the rides don't even look half as enticing as before. guess it's all part of getting old. and i swear i will not bemoan looking younger than i really am any longer, because apparently i look old enough now to get into the casino. i was half a step away from going up to the security guard and saying "are you SURE you don't want to check my id?"

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anyway i'm not a flighty flooze of a fangirl no matter how much that previous post made me out to be alright. i think people must think i'm a total airhead. -_-

sometimes it bothers me that people think (or that i think people think anyway) that i have like a three-minute interest in things and that i switch from one fad to another without so much as a blink. okay, maybe i'm exaggerating but it's not true anyway. i know it seems like that but i'm really not that frivolous. or perhaps i should say i hope i'm not all that frivolous. it's like having many varied interests but i do take them seriously. it's not like i find a new thing to gush over every week and promptly forget the old one or anything.

i don't know how to put it and i think i'm just digging a deeper grave for myself. look how self-absorbed this post is haha count the numbers of 'i's.

alright just random ramblings. anyway i'm so glad my papers are finally over. so many things i want to do! but first i'm going to finally get started on fable 3 and brotherhood it's amazing how i managed to refrain from starting them before. alright abrupt end of post while i get to playing heh.